I can't breath...

Just another addition to my piece of shit life...so I dated this guy Marshall, i adored him, god i still do...he was really, reallly good friends with this other chick emily while we were dating, went over to her house and shit... he dumped me three months ago--that's about when things started spiraling downhill again...now I just found out her and him are dating...god i just can't breath. I still love him so much. i want him to be mine again but i can't. i can't do this anymore. whats the point of this anyways? our lives are just the slow process of waiting in this hell, waiting for death. 

but there are some of us who are wiser, who cut it short and end the waiting, the suffering...i have a feeling my time is coming to a close. I've died too many times